wheres the proof???

ok so i love film its basically my passion...but i have no proof ive done stufff in that field.. "why"? you ask...cuz the people i work with are lazy n most likey forgot my name n address... i neva receive a copy of things i was invovled n....(not everyone listed didnt give me somethin bac) i worked wit MOMA, JOHN LENNON TOUR BUS,FILM/VIDEO EDITING( n my retarded skool). no evidence. i look like a lazy no good person wit only a dream. i mean no biggy except now colleges are askin for portfolios n crap... damn im dooooomed... royah---out!